Britton Thomas - In Its Place [Not Content]

Track 11 on my debut album, Not Content.
I just destroyed the only thing I cared about. Track 11 on this album was going to be a song by me and my best friend together, and now this is in its place.

I used to have a best friend then I went and butchered it,
You can’t show off a scar ‘less you know the one who surturered it.
This used to be a different song, all along,
My best friend and I were gonna write one together,
Rap about how we love one another, and
I would go first, and she would go second,
Intertwining both our rhymes as the song went on,
Then our love went gone,
Now I’ve got an empty slot with nothing to put on
And I’ve got no one to feel it,
Raise your hands if you feel it,
She was everything,
And my friends say to move on,
And I’m like what are you telling me,
You must be fucking kidding me
You don’t have a clue what she meant to me,
And she’s moved on, and I feel done,
I wonder if I’ll ever be close to anyone

She’s got people lined up,
And I don’t,
And that sucks,
She was my first and my second and my third,
No luck in this world is left for me,
I guess I’m to blame but can you blame me,
Just shot the final shot,
When I needed out the box
I guess if I was perfect then they wouldn’t show me curtains,
Issues put the brakes down on my legs and that’s for certain,
Plaguing me they’re systematic,
They get to know me then they leave me, yeah, it must be automatic,

This used to be a song above love and not pity,
A song with symphonies of love, not sympathies of feeling shitty
This used to be a song about fates and soul mates,
But now there’s a different one sitting in its place
This used to be a song above love and not pity,
A song with symphonies of love, not sympathies of feeling shitty
This used to be a song about fates and soul mates,
But now there’s a different one sitting in its place

Staring at the carcases of alcohol I’m downing,
Bottles all around me swear to god enough to drown me,
I’m an indoor pool turning upside down,
I don’t see the point to finding upsides now.
I wish my bed was just a coffin, and I could just lie down.
Real life, feels like, cheap kicks and weighted dice,
I wish that I could switch it up and start enjoying life
How come I never thought to wash the dried blood off my knife.

Maybe all the hopes gone,
On the way to her house, I heard some crazy songs,
Shuffled on my playlist, blasted speakers so I won’t miss,
The first one was Sunset, it’s by the XX about two friends, no longer,
Fed into the winds, of loss and not heaven
The second was Just a Couple Friends, Sugar Pine 7
This is not a joke, both those songs played on the way to her house,
So I could say that we were done and ditch out

This used to be a song above love and not pity,
A song with symphonies of love, not sympathies of feeling shitty
This used to be a song about fates and soul mates,
But now there’s a different one sitting in its place
This used to be a song above love and not pity,
A song with symphonies of love, not sympathies of feeling shitty
This used to be a song about fates and soul mates,
But now there’s a different one sitting in its place

But now the deed is done, now the deed is done,
The songs meant nothing to me ‘cause I told her anyway,
She smiled and said okay, like she wasn’t even phased,
She got back inside and chatted with her friends,
While I cried the whole way home, broken in my chest
I don’t know what future’s hold but in the present I’m alone,
Not getting any rest.
I guess I’m Not Content
And that’s the way it is

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